It was just one of those days. It seemed that nothing was going my way no matter what I did, I really couldn’t do anything right. From the start, I woke up late and that set the tone for what I would experience. That caused me to skip my time with God and jump right into my day without reading the Bible or prayer. I seemed a little more on edge this day because I had been dealing with the frustrations of life on my strength. Every small detail caused me to become more angry and frustrated not only with God but also with the people around me.

I jumped in the blue bucket (my car) and ended up driving to my office on the beach, hitting every red light possible on my way. Even though I wasn’t in a hurry, I was still pretty mad. Somebody decided that they wanted to cut me off, so that fueled more anger. It just kept building up; things got worse. Big things! Like finding out that everything I worked for back in the states at my house would soon be taken away, and I would be left with years of wasted time and money.

That night I was playing futsal and all my frustrations came out in my adrenaline. One of the players from the other team started to target me and play dirty. Every time I got the ball, he would either push me or kick me. Any other day I would just laugh it off and just score a goal to get them to stop. But this day was different, and I couldn’t hold back anymore because of all this anger and disappointment that I was experiencing.

So as I received the ball, he came up and kicked me again knocking me to the ground this time. I was so angry that I got up charged after him and punched him in the face. With one hard blow, he flew back and hit his head on the ground. Everybody rushed in to see if he was ok. I felt so good, and as everybody was scampering around in confusion. They had to call 911 because he had stopped breathing. I had hit him so hard that when he hit the ground I had killed this man.

But the feeling was fantastic! All of my anger from the day was gone and just being able to kill the man relieved me of everything. So I walked away with a smile, but then something hit me. I had killed a man and what I did was extremely evil. I now would have to live with knowing that I took somebody’s life. One of the worse things a person can do is to kill someone!

Although this story is not true, it makes us look at how God sees anger. He says that being angry with somebody is the same thing as murder in your heart. When we get mad at somebody what we are doing is taking a knife and stabbing that person until they take their last breath. Typically we don’t see it that way but, to God there is no difference.

Everything starts in our heart. If our heart is pure like God, then we will live a life of loving people. But when our heart is selfish like the Devil, we will live a life that is full of hate. The more we follow after Jesus, the more our heart becomes soft and filled with His love. This only comes through the Holy Spirit at work in our lives.

I hope that we can all look at our life and see whether we are filled with a heart of love or a heart of hate. If you are full of hate, you probably aren’t living your life seeking after Jesus. Now is a good time to repent (turn from your sinful life) and turn to Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. God Bless you and know that there is no better life than a life that overflows the love of Christ.